Skull, Girl and Cherry Blossom Art available on paper, stretched canvas, luxury metal or acrylic. Multiple sizes available with free shipping!
For as long as I can remember, I’ve had a fear of dying. More precisely, of being dead. Apparently, psychotherapists call this “thanatophobia”.
The fear felt like there was a terrifying monster lurking in my subconscious. It would sprint towards me, desperate to grab hold if I should so much as glimpse at it for a moment. I would keep it locked up in the back of my mind and there it stayed.
As a young adult I did pretty well in life. On the surface at least. I had an amazing partner, completed a degree in art and design and was given my first art book publishing deal at 21 years old.
Unknown to the outside world, I’d been suffering from anxiety and depressive episodes throughout both my childhood and adult years due to this whole death issue. It was secretly ruining my life.
I was aware that I’d eventually need to confront this monster before it teared me apart from the inside. I was desperate to fully escape the darkness and suffocating feeling this fear would bring. And I wanted to finally move towards a bright and terror-free future! It was on my 25th birthday that I decided to finally beat this fear at all costs!
Although I had no idea how to get over it. How do I rid myself of a fear that has always been a part of me? I didn’t have people around me who I felt would understand this weird dying phobia. Nor did I know of any world-class specialists who might have a solution. The fact that I was almost financially broke at the time meant throwing money at the issue wasn’t the answer either.
As to not burden others, I’ve always been one to hide my emotions and try not to show weakness. However, I decided to bravely swallow my pride and ended up seeing a therapist. She believed I’d be able to tackle this monster over time. I was hopeful.
I took a seat in her cramped office while she faced opposite me. The curtains were half drawn, allowing for some daylight to shine through. After we finished brief, polite introductions, there was a pause. I could hear the overhead fan spinning quietly in the background as I nervously squeezed the soft leather arms of the chair I sat on. I then began tentatively explaining my story.
Several sessions later and things weren’t working out. She’d often veer off topic; bringing up her own issues, such as her alcoholic father or husband who seemingly also had a problem with drink. Half the time, I felt like I was her therapist! I left.
At around the same time, life decided to punish me. A relationship with my partner ended, my best friend betrayed me and the art in my gallery, at the time, was not selling and causing extra stress I didn’t need. I felt so defeated. I remember going for a walk late at night to try and help process my current circumstances. It was quiet but for the sound of nearby rustling tree leaves in the wind. The damp pavements were dimly lit by overheard street lights and the smell of wet rain still lingered in the air. I thought, now I might as well just unlock the monster in my mind and embrace my phobia head on. How much worse can things get? They did get worse! The fear gripped me to such an extent that I had a complete metal breakdown.
I was a patient guy and used to dealing with problems. For example, I was never naturally talented, so even the process of learning to draw presented me with relentless challenges and failures to overcome on a daily basis. Fortunately, that meant I’d managed to build up some resilience and inner strength I could use to help get me through what felt like hell. It took months, but I finally made my way through the abyss and back out to the other side. My life circumstances eventually began to improve.
Still determined to alleviate my fears of death, I tried a new, more measured approach. Over the course of several years in my 20s and 30s, I read many books on religion, spirituality, psychology and even theoretical physics. It was an invaluable education, giving me an exciting new perspective on life, death and the universe.
As a part of my journey I learned that life, death and existence itself is a nuanced topic. Defining death as this scary, bad thing is not necessarily correct and certainly not useful. In fact, it can be the start of a celebration in some cultures.
As of now, I’m happy and doing great! My personal life has sorted itself out and have people around me I love and care about. Professionally, I can’t complain- having sold thousands of individual artworks to customers across the globe, and with my art books selling over a million copies and translated into several languages. Most importantly, I’ve finally started coming to terms with my mortality.
I created this artwork to remind us to live our best life, knowing that each day could be our last. Now when asked “why do we have to die?” I respond, “to make life worth living”.
❇️ Production and Shipping Time:
Glossy Photo Paper: 5 days for printing, 5-10 days for shipping.
Ready-to-Hang Canvas: 5 days for printing, 5-10 days for shipping.
Artwork will be delivered anywhere in the world free of charge!
❇️ Styles of Print:
There are 5 ways to print this artwork.
1) Premium Glossy Paper is used for high quality, professional paper-prints.
♦ Sharp, Vivid and rich Color sets this apart from a casual, home photo print and makes use of artwork specifically created at super-high resolution for maximum detail.
♦ Premium Glossy Photo Paper will last a long time.
♦ This option is available in 8×10 inches, 11×14 inches or 16×20 inches.
♦ They are designed to be placed in a glass frame, which can be purchased separately (starting at a few dollars at your local Target or online).
♦ Signature watermark or numbers will not appear on actual artwork.
2) Ready to Hang Canvas is ready to put up on your wall right out of the box with. Zero assembly required for ultimate convenience.
♦ Gorgeous finished look. It comes out of the shipping box finished and ready to hang with a simple nail in the wall.
♦ Canvas Prints are a well-known, high-end way of displaying artwork.
♦ Premium 1.5 inch thick wooden stretcher-bars that give it depth and shape, in the same way an oil painting is traditionally assembled. There are no staples or ugly lines visible on the sides (very important).
♦ Add an optional modern, black frame if buying: 16×20, 12×36, 24×36 or 30×40 inch Canvases.
3) Ready to Hang Canvas (split into 3 panels). Includes the same features a single Canvas print. Also:
♦ This is for larger pieces- the artwork is split into 3 even panels. 3 separate canvas panels which put together make a single large image.
♦ This gives a modern look, and allows spectacularly large sizes on your wall!
4) Aluminium Metal Prints
♦ Elegant wall décor that shines. High-end, exclusive and unique aluminium metal print add a touch of luxury to your walls.
♦ Polished, vibrant reproduction for optimal colour saturation on a 3mm thick aluminium plate with gloss coating.
♦ UV resistant ink prevents fading. All metal sizes are ready to hang on your wall, right out of the box.
5) Acrylic Prints
♦ Eye-catching home décor with modern acrylic prints. Light refracts through the museum-quality acrylic, bringing vibrancy and depth to the artwork.
♦ The clear acrylic produces superb image quality from edge to edge and absolutely stunning, brilliant colour.
♦ UV resistant ink prevents fading. All acrylic sizes are ready to hang on your wall, right out of the box.